Sunday, May 11, 2008

Happy Mothers Day

This is the day that I feel most blessed all year. Ever since I could remember I always wanted to be a mommy....little did I know that the Lord had others plans for how I would be a mommy. We were so desperately trying to do it "our" way. We went to all of the specialists, took all of the medicine, had all the surgeries - all for nothing. We were still without a baby. After many years of just being angry and upset I finally realized that it wasn't up to me. I had to let it go and let the Lord show us what his plan was. Very hesitantly I agreed when Charlie suggested adoption. Those days are still a blur for me because they went sooooo fast in respects to adoption. From start to finish it was 6 months - that isn't even a normal gestational period for if I were to birth my own! I do remember the day we found out that we were chosen to be the parents of a baby boy. We were on cloud nine! We went to the baby store and LOADED up because in two weeks he was coming to be with us forever. We were in line and as the cashier was scanning it all she had a puzzled look on her face. Finally she just had to ask...."are you having a baby?" "YES!" Charlie and I both replied at the same time. She paused, leaned over to me and whispered......"don't you think you should wait for the baby shower....you probably will get most of this then?" I just burst out laughing. "we only have two weeks to get ready, we are adopting" Then she understood and began to scan faster.


The day Tyler entered our lives changed us forever. I didn't know I could love someone that much that I never met before. It was intense.


To this day I can look back on my journey to become a mother and be thankful. Even though most of that journey was a very painful one, I wouldn't change it. I don't think that I have had a chance to use what the Lord taught me during this time and I truly believe that he took me through it for a reason.

This year my boys took me to Asuka - Japenese Steakhouse for lunch. This is the first time we have ever been to a place like this. The chef knew it was our first time and really did it up special for us. He made an olympic torch out of onions, then a choo choo train stack that smoked, then a volcano that bubled out red lava (sauce). It was really cool. Charlie and Tyler both caught rice in their mouths that the chef flipped off of has spatula. It was really fun.
When we got home Tyler gave me his special gift that he made at school. I have no idea what it says (and he couldn't remember) because the letters going around it are so smushed that you can't tell what they are - but it is beautiful.




Then we went over to Mimi's and gave her a gift too.


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